The bottleneck.

Am I doing something I WANT to do or I HAVE to do?

What will be my future?

What will my future be?

Can I really switch my life like this? dramatically..

How long I didn't update new post at here...

I finish my first semester and too bad I didn't get good marks on that first semester..

Actually I am totally disappointed to myself.

My level is really not at degree?

Parents said my Uni sucks.. want me to transfer to other Uni. 

I really did considering.

Shall I just leave this country?

Will it be a better future?

By the way, I'm in a relationship with some one I adore that much.

My expectation about relationship getting higher and higher..

Maybe I will really stops here or maybe not.

Relationship is really something you couldn't force it.

I had enough of it but I am still desire.

Don't want to be alone.

Ask for accompany day and night.

Wondering if I wish for any accompany who will I call at the midnight?

Am I too adore you?

I let you have your enough sleep everyday.

Don't want to let you worries about what I am worried about.

You have your different ways to face problems and face me.

This is the only thing I can keep telling myself for forgiving you.

The person that I adore damn much doesn't pay me enough time for a relationship.

I am getting greedy.

Thanks for all the scar, until the day end.

I improve, I ignore.

One day.. someday.. I will stop loving anyone anymore.. 

Just one day.. Just someday..

Just not today..

I haven't get hurt enough. (:

The last day of March.

Heavy rain outside my window makes me want to get wet in it.

The room is not dark enough..

The room is not cold enough..

Not as dark as cold as hurt than my heart.

Music: Jess Lee - Force To