Too boring Too tired..

If a girl no more complaining things to you

no more telling you she get hurt 

no more telling you stomach ache

and she no longer bully you 

beware.. 

she's going to leave you 

although she is not leaving you she is disappointed..

Can't understand what happen to myself..

Getting so unhealthy..

I know I should sleep early I know I should wake up early..

But I just can't o.O

Nor matter is a throat inflamed or nose inflamed it is getting worst day by day..

Nobody cares.

Just let my own immunity system beat all the bacteria themselves. :x

Every cough just like coughing my heart out.. 

But I do throw out what I have eat and also food poisoning while I come back from Nepal.

Nor matter I eat or not I will fell uncomfortable.. 

Where is me healthy life ?! Sobbs.. :((

My taste buds is not working too !!

So what I ate and what is the price is not a matter I can't taste it :'((

No more tears.. Am I cold-blood ?

If there is a choice to be with you again I will not..

Not because I don't love you, 

it is because we did not have a same thinking and I don't want to degrade myself anymore. <3

No hope for relationships.. 

I am corrupted.. 

Not really working 

Not really making money by myself

Not really learning anythings..

Am I really prepared for Sept Degree class ? IDK..

Actually I really trusted in you..

What you have told me before..What you promise me before I did double confirm with you 

but... It seems like not going to happen.. :((

I will give you a long hug when I meet you <3

because... you ask for it ? XD

I want us to be happy like the day before you go to study, can we ? :3

So exiting for the coming KL trip !! :D

My parents don't like I go out with guys afraid that...

My parents don't like I go out with tomboys they afraid that..

haiz..

Should I go out with ALIENS ?! o.O

Before I forget you, you have no choice and rights to forget me. <3

猖獗..

我想，不再觸碰愛情這個東西。

不想再傷害任何人 不想再傷害自己..

蘇麗蔚，你真的比較適合獨自一個人。<3

愛與不愛 又怎麼樣 都被現實包圍著..

當你很愛很愛一個人 不管麵包 只管愛情 

當你擁有了愛情 你會開始反省 沒有麵包哪裡來的愛情

嚴格來說 19歲了 官方來說 20歲了

我活在這個世界上原來那麼多年了

這些年 被我傷害的人.. 我想說 真的 對不起。

不管當初是不是誤會 不管當初誰對誰錯了..

都過去了。

我願意帶走那些回憶。

那麼多感情裡難免會有真心的..

謝謝你們 曾經對我真心過，我不曾忘記過。<3

選擇性遺忘了很多以為自己可以假裝多麼的快樂..

看著你們一個個把和我的回憶刪除 丟掉..

我自己卻收著 默默不出聲 你們也會以為我把一切都丟了吧 :)

愛情 就是讓人類犯賤啊..

不是愛與不愛 就是適不適合..

我和他不適合 我放手的 我做罪人 那至少他不會再活在我的折磨 壓力裡面。

做罪人 也無所謂啊 

那是該放手的 因為不放手也只是互相折磨..越傷越重

可是誰會捨得..?

看著那曖昧漸漸變認真了 互相害怕不敢退一步 更不敢進一步..

開始疑惑 到底什麼是對的 什麼是錯的..

每個人都有自己的未來.. 又該放手了？

不再傷害任何人 蹂躪別人 不如蹂躪自己 至少不會有罪惡感 :)

蘇麗蔚，不要再傷害任何人了，你傷不起。<3

再痛，都不能出聲。:)

今天開始 我一個人走自己的路。

無所謂了 不渴望了 不依賴了 相信一切不可能了..

沒有 戀愛中 一切 曖昧就好 :) <3

While waiting for you..

Lonely is a small black man.. 

The worst relationship is the relationship that makes you disparage yourself. 

Unfortunately every relationship that I value it makes me disparage myself.

In any case, I am single that's all.

The most sad case is not about I didn't have the right, that's not a problem. 

Just let it be, let everything go. The one who come back is the one.

Will you be the one ? Idk..

Maybe I am too depend on you.. I shouldn't , right ?

Sometimes you say something as a joke but I though it is a promise and surely you didn't achieve it.

Should I tell you what you accidentally promise me? Or just let it go? like nothing happen before..

Thanks for making me felt that I am not alone but you leaving me alone now.

The first time you saw me crying in the cam.. Although I firmly deny.

We deserve what we decide. <3

Raining night ~ so cold.. I am hiding in my bed sheet with heavy jacket, felt secure. :3

Turn the music to the loudest volume typing my blog. <3

Cheer up !! and get over it..

You have schoolmate, classmate, teammate, housemate.. whatever mate and I know you have a better life now.

I understand. :) 

I will not complain anything anymore anyhow. :)

Just come back from Nepal trip. 

What I get is a more sensitive stomach. :((

It is an experience. 

The world is just like a book and when you go anywhere to travel seems like you have finish one chapter of the book. <3

I love travel but I hate food that not hygiene ! :((

Having fever yesterday and keep stomach pain non-stop.. haiz 

What happen to me ?  T^T

OMG!! I WANT TO GO FOR MOVIE!! :'((

nobody accompany me.. sobbs

badly badly badly..

Found this phrase very interesting in the animated movie I downloaded. <3

明明很寂寞 但是又害怕接受別人的好意

裝作不知道 裝作沒看見 

逃跑 搪塞 矇混 拒絕

而且還對自己的心說謊 說自己沒有被喜愛著。

Smile because it happens :)

A evening that full of tears..

Nothing to wrote because no words can express my feeling now..

This feeling is terrible like nothing to hold with.. helpless

No more jellyfish.. NOW I am Goldfish.. :')

Today I have a good day with my family, but not with you.. 

Why can't I balance both..?!

Useless..

Even though I faced so many relationship problem in my life until today..

I doesn't meant that my immune system is good enough already.. Please..

It also means that my heart is now more weaker than before worst than before..

Okay.. Just let it be..

Don't know what should I do..

Keep going on or just like what you mention.. end it ?

Tearing my heart apart and apart and I can't get a answer for life..

After I decide to make you a surprise for you I seldom post in blog anymore..

Thanks for the accompanying and all those honeyed words make me warm..

Nor matter how is the ending.. Thanks :)

I really lake of the sense of security.. Not going to blame anyone just to mention it only.. :)

Today is Mother's Day !!

Mom.. I love you so much.. 

Although I am still always make you angry and so childish.. <3

Vagrant Update.

They said everything is planed by the God.

Someone says they trust about the Fate. 

There is also people think that if you didn't do anything and didn't pay the price, you will never get what you want. 

This is me.

You can't just wait for the fate, right?

What if the God forget to plan for you?

Can't you see? I am willing to hold you tide..

Maybe yes and maybe not.. but soon.. one more week.. 

I am going some where for one week trip and you are going to move to accommodation..

After that.. you can no more accompany me cause you need to study :((

No more accompanying me chat for the whole day and I am alone again..

What should I said? Good Bye? 

At lease now you are still accompanying me.. 

I am trying to be Positive..

I am really lake of confidence in any relationship.

I really don't know how to communicate and remain or maintain.

Don't dare to ask you stay for me.. I know you will not.. no.. you can't.

I just wanted to leave here. 

I know I am not independent but I am willing to go out and face the society.

No more criticize No more people keep saying I am useless and want me to do this and that.

No one in this house cherish me appreciate what I have done.

The cherish a daughter study overseas and paying the 7k school fees.

Not the one working for them helping them and accompany beside them.

Damn!!

Teaching your child is your responsibility not just feeding them and want them to think their own.

This is not consider as education!

Really can't accept people are worst than me saying I am USELESS or LOUSY.

I am not comparing myself with your another daughter I am just typing what I felt NOW.

Sometimes just sometimes..Hush..

Glad that I have a chance to appears in your life to makes you happy.

When I makes you happy I felt happy too. 

Although is not because of me but since you are happy I will happy too. :D

If you are not happy I will not happy too. :(

There is many words using chinese will more meaning full and beautiful than english. <3

矛盾的內心 天使輕聲說 惡魔吶喊著。

Am I a fool? Should I think that this is enough already and let go?

Afraid about making any decision.. 

I remember that you asking me not to leave.. you're afraid..

Actually I am afraid too..

Inside my heart is being more weak and weak. 

Every time I want myself to be strong and always end up being weak because of someone. 

Get hurt easily and cry easily..

Who will protect me? ...Nobody? Will you...?

我喜歡你半睡半醒的時候 <3

You're very cute when you are half sleeping mood. (I know you'll be more confidence when you saw this 0.0 )

The reason is.. you will talk all the truth like you are drunk 

This is the only moment I will know you are not kidding and you're thinking actually. :)  

There is a story that's haven end yet here come the next story..

This time I will really be Single for a long time. Will I ? idk..

Something I will tell you trough the phone and will not post in my blog.. :)

Maybe I told you already and maybe not.

You promise to make me study.. You promise to make me improve..

You said that you are the better on for me.. 

You just asked me to do revision but end up we having DDT for two hours and sleeping in afternoon around one hour.. 

Opps 0.o

After you move to accommodation is what I will need to really worried and afraid for..

You are lake of patience person but I am not..

What will happen to both of us?

That day my friend told me that I am very popular because of my Facebook.

Because I have mutual friends with most of his friend.

Erm.. Should I felt happy? But...

Facebook friends will only be Hi Bye Friends never be Good Friends.

They are just "Facebook Friends". Haiz..

Why near by my house have no Starbucks?! I miss Starbucks badly.. :((

Getting better with mom.. Good news. :))

每一扇門，都住著一個精靈。<3