What next.. ?

How long I didn't post in blogger means how long I can't control and balance myself.

Woohoo~~

I went to the second concert in my life.

Mayday Nowhere Concert in Singapore Indoor Stadium. :D

14.06.2013

I went to the Singapore Zoo too. At 15.06.2013.

Nowadays the haze in Singapore is become worst.

JB is better but it is also horrible enough. 

Everyone is wearing mask. :((

I am missing the fresh air every morning.. :((

Decided to have my degree in Sept intake.

It will be the Bachelor in Communication of Media Studies and Public Relation.

Hope that I can improve my language but.. I didn't really put in effort. >___<

Busy watching the Japan animation until my mom ask me that am I going to Japan for overseas study. o.O

20.06.2013 

I did something I didn't do it so loooooong..

It is Crazy.. I am Sick..

Maybe somebody will know what I have done..?

Don't ask me who I do it for.. No one.

I am devil. Please set me free. My angle.

People that treat me good and care for me gone..

I know how to contact with but I refuse.

Why? Because.. If they really leave me for this time.. they will surely did it next time. :)

I am become more mature in the outside. More childish in the inside.

If I can choose I choose to not be independent but I have no choice. I must learn to independent.

I mix all my the things in my life to a beaker and keep stir and stir try to make it more equal more balance.

I will do my best and done what I can for you all. 

So that even though one day I have to leave this world I will not have any regret. :)

Will you miss me?

I am glad that I still running this blog at lease there is a space for me to show myself without to much of acting. <3

Why some of them can't live without in a relationship.

I just want someone who willing to know me.. Never make me as a habit.. 

People that I know in the internet, all kinds. Most of them will wanted to be your friends after few days to one week unstop chat they will start to said something very close and soon they will want to be in a relationship with you.

What? Just can't be normal friends? Or better friends ONLY?

Don't understand.

People who appear in my life since this three months and some of them have already leave me.

SHY. LXY. LWT. <3

Growth..

Did you ever recontact to your ex. before? When your ex. have a new girlfriend.

I did struggle but nobody knows.

Seems you have a happy life with your new girlfriend now, should I glad for you? Sure.

You are no longer loving me, please admit it.

[ x ]

Maybe is time to let go everything, I just need to keep on study and try to go overseas.

For how long..? Idk.

Leaving all the memories here and let the time dissolve it all.

[ x ]

Yesterday night I have a clue.. I forgive my family by treat me different from my elder sister.

I also change my mind a little bit and change my perspective.

[ x ]

Realize..

People that says they care for me not really want to woo me,

actually they are just like finding a toy to play with. :')

Come in to my life, act like a flirtationship and after hurt me, they gone.

They don't really cares about me, they cares themselves more than me.

Just maintain the bloody flirtationship,

watching all the passing traveller one by one walk in my life and gone.

Maybe someone they are not but the same like other but I still need more and more time..

They always said that I am important but they have things that more important than me.. loll

We all been hurt by someone. <3

[ x ]

Actually writing all this nonsense with no reason..

Please let me be childish and stubborn in all the post in my blog..

Please let me give vent to all this post.

So that I can balance myself in the reality life.

I should become more mature. <3

[ x ]

I miss that jerk. <3

Misgivings..

Don't know why.. 

Saw you chatting with others with all the words we talk to each other before makes my heart pain.. 

I didn't trust it is true but it hurt.. subtle and ineffable..

Maybe I need more time?

I should let go more memories, or you already leave me.. 

No.. I am the one leave you..I deserve it.

Are you really interesting in me? 

Or.. you just want to be in a shady relationship with me?

Even though you said you likes me, chosen me.. you didn't care about me.

My tears, feelings, emotion, need, care, everything. 

Just spend some time on me..

Ist too hard for you?

When I still willing to spend time on you, wait for you..

please.. 

Why everyone keep repeating the same story.

Become lazy and lazy.. lake of that will power to change myself.

Although I said will not love you I will change or what and I really will do it.. but..

I can't.

Soon.. I will continue my degree..

With my broken english.

Thanks for Ryan, I have a very good time of 4 days 3 nights in Kuala Lumpur.

You are my BFF. <3

I shall make myself more busy, keep improve myself..

I want to let you know I will live a better life.

Just start watching at Attack On Titan.

Nice!

Don't wish anyone saw my blog post again..

Even you saw my post it doesn't you understand me..

Nobody really willing to understand and care about me.