27.11.2013

Just today I can't smile..

Don't know why..

Start from the morning, when I leave my bed..

All the way to today class.. 

Repeat the same song.. 'Wait For You-Elliot Yamin' 

I lost my smile..

Reach Singapore 2 hours earlier than the class..

Walk damn slowly..

Read all my phone contact..

But at the end I called Mr. Wood.. Lol

This time.. I didn't simile after the call..

In the class..

Afraid of fail the module and retake..

Moody..

1600 The class end early..

I called Mr.Wood again..

After the call I still didn't get my smile back..

Then I walk damn slow back to JB again..

And I bought the Junk food that I stop eating for almost half year..

And I take a bus that I never take before.. 

Weird..

Just wish that someone can accompany me..?

erm.. Nothing.. 

At lease I realize that there is nothing for me to felt happy and nothing to make me felt sad too..

Cheer?

In Love Post?

I am not in a rush to having a relationship with you.

Sometimes, I just can't be that happy and joy..

Because that I afraid that I will lost you in my life..

Always saw your status on Facebook,

shows that you are not happy or just worries about something..

I just can't ignore. 

I wish that you can be happy, that is my only motivation! <3

Sorry to not be that ethical to someone else..

just wish to save myself for somebody. <3

Be someone you want to met.

Should I say IMY..?

I though I didn't left you out of my mind before..

Mr.Wood,

If you are not brave enough.. 

I will speak your part..

At lease I knew you will learn to be brave after that..

:3

Maybe sometimes you felt awkward.. but it is also happiness to me. <3

No need any kisses and accompany,

You can be busy at your occupations part..

I knew I am that easy but not for everyone.. :3

I wish to wait for you.<3

Fish Leong / 梁靜茹 - "愛久見人心" (官方完整上字 HD 版)

Moon is part of the Sky..

喜歡在你身旁的自己，暫離那幾乎虛假做作的笑顏。<3

The method you use is wrong..

Damn wrong..

I am 20years old 

I am a university student

I go out with friends and stay the whole night 

But I still go back home after that and work for you 

Work for my responsibilities

Isn't that enough?

What am I not enough mature at? 

Now I know you all just want someone who not selfish and bind the perfect for you all.

You still had your daughter besides you..

Why should you hold tide and even more tide to let her want to run away?

I am not my sis.. Can you please not saying 'If your sis do it.. she will done it better.. faster..'

enough..

I know who I want to go along with.. 

Who are good for me. 

Maybe you should just not holding so tide to make someone stay. 

Why don't you try a reverse method. 

If we can't communicate how can we stay together the whole life. 

Do you really understand me.. 

Or you think that it is not necessary?

We really had to restart our mind. Love you all. <3

22 November 2013 

I never wake up on time other than going to school or having special event/date 

Even though that sometimes I need to wake up to event/date I can also sleep late too

Today I wake up early and very fresh LOL

I went to mini market and buy stuff 

Spend around 2 to 3 hours cooking in the kitchen for your Macaroni..

Until today you didn't comment anything about it.. :(( 

I spend my time to be alone at your house..

Hmm, that was ridiculous!

I don't like to be quiet.. alone.. 

When I am alone at home I can accept but when someone is there but I still need to be freeze I can't understand why..

This make me lost and tears..

The first time.. someone wash my car for me.. :3

The first time we go to Karaoke together.. 

Sang some songs together.. 

Having funny photo together..

Although I don't like you always post ugly photo of mine at your Facebook..

But I felt that weird that I had that feelings.. 

nor matter how ugly I am there is still a you besides me.

23 November 2013

At lease.. staying beside you.. My evil and dark side didn't appear..

I always felt comfort that when you're bedsides me..

Knowing you will take care of me.. 

Wish that I could be your princess.. and I only wanted to be yours..

0000-0500

The second hug from you.. 

Do you had the same feeling as me?

just felt like I don't want to let go anymore..

Wish that it could be a long hug.. >_____<"

I love that kind of feeling that..

I close my eyes have a rest..

When I open my eyes you're looking at me.. 

No ones did that and makes me felt that way..<3

I really talk like a drunker that whole night.. Think back make me so embarrass /.\

Thanks for let me knowing what's in your mind and understand you better. :3

I knew.. you just want to Remain and Cherish what we having now.

Let see. <3

I totally sank in this horoscope stuff!!

Maybe just because they are so me.. 

or.. I just want to know myself more? love myself more?

【摩羯座有一个很明显的特点】

很爱笑，一点小事就会笑逐颜开~

摩羯座很简单，什么都写在脸上~

摩羯座 爱憎分明，不会给自己不欢的人丝毫机会，对自己喜欢的人超级纵容~

摩羯座喜欢简简单单，不喜欢麻烦，不喜欢累的感觉~

如果摩羯座首先对你动心了，则一定不会被动的等待, TA定会让你知道~ 

摩羯是完美主义者，极端主义者，要么破碎，要么完美，不要中间。

他们只挑自己爱做的事，要么不做，要做就做到最好。

但摩羯座其实也“懒”，不想活得那麼累，能简单尽量简单，不爱解释，

始终认为懂自己的不用解释，不懂自己的不必解释，不相管那麼多不相干的事。

摩羯座很在乎朋友亲人又常常懒得联系，很宅懒得走动。

要不很沉默内敛，要么high起来让人觉得很2B。

喜欢很开心地笑，其实很多时候不知道为什么而开心。

要么很洁癖，要么就是环境毁灭者。

要么超勤快要么又小懒虫一个。

吃软不吃硬，喜欢装坚强。

真正的摩羯，失败困难时总是努力赶走身边的人，因为他想独自消化困难；

真正的摩羯，极端的现实，甚至做梦都和现实有关。

有野心、有效率、追求完美、做任何事都要求最高标准。

摩羯座最渴望的爱情模式—莎士比亚模式~

摩羯座永远渴望着一场真正的恋爱，没有争吵的喧哗，没有物质的阴谋，彼此心意相同，缠绵悱恻。

摩羯对爱的追求和渴望是永不止步的，只要认定了爱值得付出，就会倾其所有。

因此，纯净的摩羯在现实中也许注定要受些伤害，不过最终都能找到爱情的归宿~

---追求摩羯秘籍---

1 每天的电话短信关心问候必不可少 （摩羯缺少安全感） 

2 时常制造巧遇情节 （摩羯相信缘分） 

3 展现乐观幽默的个性 （忧郁的摩羯向往欢笑） 

4 与异性不要过分热情 （摩羯小心眼） 

5 要有打持久战的耐心 （摩羯不会轻易爱上一个人） 

摩羯座不太懂得拒绝别人，会撒谎，但是蹩脚到很容易被识破；

摩羯座喜欢逞嘴上功夫，小争小吵赢不了你就跟你沉默冷战然后又装作没事发生会回来黏你；

摩羯实际蛮孩子气，但是偏宅，有点儿闷，不是很有趣，有点儿传统有点儿黏人。

摩羯座喜欢安稳地生活，不喜欢太大的改变。

就算有时想尝试新的东西，在看到平时做的东西时，就会忍不住重做自己已经习惯的活动。 

“我喜欢吃云吞，到了外头就算看到看起来很好吃的美食，我会纠结好一阵子，然后又决定还是吃云吞面好…”

摩羯座在喜欢上一个人时，他的表现连自己都会觉得莫名其妙。

害怕的想去闪躲，却又无形中去接近。

想要对自己的感觉坦诚，却害怕自己是一厢情愿…

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Mind to mind..

Are you going to still treat a 20 years old as a teenagers?

If you don't trust me why you said that I bluff you?
If you have a answer and why you ask so?

So now I realize that i can face this shit without any tears.

Previously you all did not give any limits other than the 'Cinderella Effects'
But now they said something even more worst.
Please, you are not controlling the situation. 
You are just pointing at me with a knife and want me run away.

I really don't know what you all think about.
Just caring about yourself..
But you expect from me is everything.

You teach me that if I want anyone to do favor for me I will need to do it first.
To convince others, convince myself first. 
But what you all do isn't what you all teach me.

All this scar at my hand is not just a scar is what you all did..
I knew that even though I tell you all what I am thinking it will not have any conclusion too.
So just put all the pain to that scar and let it recover by itself.

Sometimes I just don't know why..
I trusted her.. 
She betray me.. 
She told me that she will help me and assist me on my assignment.
I trusted her and end up.. my 20% assignment burn in the air. 
It really hurts..
Just because that you 'though..'
Do you think it is reasonable? Please..  

Maybe she just revenge I rejected her.. 

Sorry is really the most useless word ever in this world.
I hate it!

To give myself a chance and give the Mr.Wood a chance..
I decided to not make any decision and just observation until 12th of December. 
We will definitely make it, I knew.<3
If we can remain until that day and without any mistake..
I think I will do something crazy to prove our relationship.<3

Understanding in your mind might be not so important..

Who will found my scar..
Who will give me a hug and knowing my pain..

The first semester of my degree..
I felt that I fail.. 
Although I pass or what.. I fail..
I am not a good student and I did not do well enough..
I wish the time can go back to the first day.
Unfortunately it is impossible..
So, I promise myself that I will not do the same dumb stuff at the next semester!

Insomnia Post?

I just posted a throwback post and I can't sleep..

so this is the Insomnia Post! hah!

This is no more a shady relationship but it is also not a true relationship..♥

I really never on diet until this serious..

One day one meal.

I never stops eating for my previous 'ex'

But now I realize that I am really controlling myself on the food..

No more Bubble Tea.. No more fast food.. No more bread..

Am I holding myself to do all this for anyone? IDK..

Actually I knew I am getting not as healthy as previous..

Sleep late.. One meal a day.. 

Even my period @#$%^&*(_+ !! XDD

But.. Why am I doing this to myself..?

I try to go out very frequent nowadays.. 

Just don't want and not feeling like want to stay at home.. 

Only when I am out I can felt that damn feelings..

That somehow called "Cinderella Effects" lolz

I know how crazy I am.. 

If going out too frequent I will close myself at home for few days too.. 

Maybe it is just to balanced my life.

I love to have you to be my driver.

Others can't let me felt that way but you did..

15.11.2013

We have a date today that is fix few days before.

Having brunch with my Sec and Pri school friend at CS.

After that go to deliver goods. Yup. Working. 

Next, KSL to have movie.. drinks.. settle hp stuff..

Evening.. We have no where to go.

You decided to bring me some where I did not been there ever.

Nearby The Zon? Oops. In front of my sis high school..

A slope to the sea of between JB and SG.

We staying in the car relaxing with the winds.. chatting 

Having a good time laughing in the car while going back home.

I really never done something like this before.. LOVE IT!! ♥

Sorry for accidentally knowing your email /.\

erm.. I just finish reading all the post you wrote before? lolz

I get a "decision"?  "conclusion"?? "answer"??? from you today..

Yup.

Nothing else.. Just are going to STAY and CHERISH now 

You're still in your commitment, so am I. ♥

Sometime I wish to be true with some one and not just like illusion.. fake..

Just let me feel it is okay not to be okay..♥

OKAY! OKAY!

I totally missed out that I am student and I have assignment and I have exam and I am woking and I have so many works to do.

/.\

My future is fixed. 

So that is why I am posting all love and relationship stuff?

Rubbish /.\

AhHa!

It actually means that I only can rubbish and miserable because of study and relationship!

In another hand..

I can also Work Hard in this two parts of my life now.

Some people said the horoscope is more or less the same.. hmmm..

I wonder is't true that all this is fake? Everyone with different horoscope felt the same?

But it is really SO ME !! XDD

Sharing about CAPRICORN!! ♥

摩羯座的坚强只是因为找不到一个值得自己依靠的人。

当摩羯座便软弱了，就代表他遇上了一个比他更强，能够给他安全感的人。

摩羯の小秘密。

摩羯很了解世界，但他们固执地相信美好，尽管他们知道自己很没有安全感。

他们习惯在任何人面前装傻，摩羯聪明就在于这点，他们认为只有傻子才不牵扯到任何伤害，与其做一个聪明人不如当个傻子平凡而又随意。

如果你心里有了别人，告诉我。

我会停止自作多情，我会永远退出你的生命。

因为我做不到和别人分享你的爱，更做不到当你幸福路上的绊脚石。

在一份感情里，可以看淡一切现实与物质，除了爱与坚持，我别无所求。

原谅我是摩羯座。要么全部，要么零。我的世界很纯粹。

摩羯座刚认识一个人时是冷漠的。

接触较长时间会开始变得很阳光。

时间久了，他又会变冷淡…

【摩羯座真面目】

1、多情的外表，專一的內心

2、貪睡的腦袋，吃貨的嘴

3、管不住的性子，火爆的脾氣

4、堅強的外表，脆弱的心

5、對愛情很遲疑，對友情很慎重

6、講義氣的性格，總吃虧的主兒

7、一顆小小財迷心，一點微微發財夢

8、選擇恐懼癥，夜貓癥候群。

有时笑着笑着会突然有股想哭的冲动…

一个人呆着时突然觉得害怕，却不知道自己在害怕什么…

摩羯总是脸上微笑着，无所谓着，强势着，但是心里却一直流泪。

摩羯总是对陌生人冷落我难过的，但熟悉了就嘻嘻哈哈。

摩羯总是表现得很坚强，其实弱不禁风。

摩羯总是被人误解，却又不愿解释。

摩羯..

1. 爱吃冰淇淋。

2. 肠胃不好，容易拉肚子。

3. 向往一些浪漫国家，如希腊、挪威。

4. 自称内心很纯洁。

5. 最爱说别人会明白我的。

6. 平时很冷静，玩起来却很疯狂。

7. 工作狂。

8. 喜欢宁静的环境。

9. 在别人眼中，他就是与众不同，但他却不知道。

10. 开心不开心，也不愿表露出来。

摩羯溫柔。

即使討厭某人也絕對不會讓他覺察，慢慢疏遠就可以了，因為懶得和對方解釋。

不喜歡把事情復雜化，摩羯座單純，會被騙，被騙過無數次之後，心裏會提醒自己下一次絕對不要被騙。

結果還是被人騙的團團轉。會對好朋友敞開心扉。摩羯朋友圈子窄，人多了記不住。

摩羯害怕孤单,喜欢低着头走路,明明笑着,见到不熟的人,会突然沉默。

有时候习惯逃避装傻,魔羯逻辑思想其实不是大家想像的那样,害怕伤了自己,所以有些话有些事,知道,可却会自己承受自己放在心底。

原谅我是摩羯座…

生气时， 我不会抱怨不会怄气，甚至不会让任何人知道我生气的理由。

我习惯了把一切的错都揽到自己的身上。默默地生自己的气…

摩羯要鬧可以鬧,要靜可以靜的人;只要他願意,他可以和陌生人聊得像老友,如果他不想,即使對著朋友也不侃侃而談;

在外人看來很堅強開朗,什麽都無所謂,懂他的人會知道,其實他內心很脆弱,對自己喜歡的人會很自卑;摩羯會用淡淡的偽裝來保護自己,因為他們缺乏安全感.

摩羯常常口是心非，想拒绝却开不了口；

朋友挺多，但懂我的不多；

不喜欢欠别人，即使欠了，或许在别人不 知的情况下就慢慢还清了；

也不喜欢别人欠我，这是一种平衡；

不喜欢主动联系别人，但绝不是不在乎，很安静，也可以很疯癫，不要觉得我没心没肺，我只是对很多事看得很开，这就是摩羯！

摩羯并没有现实中强悍开朗，请不要相信他的那句我很好。

摩羯很缺乏安全感，一个痛心的触点就能让他泪流满面。

摩羯其实是最多眼泪的星座，你看不见他的眼泪只是他不愿流露悲伤的情绪。

摩羯最爱黑夜，因为黑夜是他的保护色能将眼泪隐藏。

爱她请不要让她在黑夜里流泪！其实他们都很脆弱.

对摩羯座而言..

无论你跟他有多好，一旦你离开了他的身边..

你和他之间跟形同陌路的陌生人没什么分别。

即便你还住在他心里也一样…

摩羯座爱得起，但是放不下，更怕伤害。

摩羯座喜欢折磨人，一会儿对你好，一会儿对你坏。

摩羯座喜欢追问你的过去，但又害怕知道你的往事。

摩羯座喜欢自欺欺人，一直说以后一切都会好。

而人群中只有那些知道背后情节的人才看见摩羯背后的眼泪和努力。

魔羯座的人非常没有安全感，不工作在她们看来就好像蜗牛没有了壳，只能任人宰割。

♪：HEBE TIEN 田馥甄 [ 渺小 INSIGNIFICANCE ]

Throwback post..

That day I chat with my sister that is still in Switzerland now..
erm.. Really miss her..
I doing all the housework by my own nowadays..
it reminds me that previously mom and sis will do it together..
very noisy but warm.. but now.. only me.

Something about the relationship that i don't know how to tell my friend..
I told my sis.. haha
the longest time we chat after she when to overseas.

06.11.2013
The special+est day ever. <3
The first time.. I go to class by car.. with a 'driver' XDD
fetch me to class and fetch me after class.. go to Vivo City in Singapore for dinner..
having dinner with my classmates.
Just don't mention that this 'driver' almost get me killed in an accidents everything will be quite okay. :x
Start from my foundation class..
I saw classmates that have boyfriend waiting for them ending the class.. It makes me so jelly /.\
FIRST TIME !! OMG !! (scream..)

After a whole day driving and sitting in the car..
we reached JB.. 'driver' house..
we started chatting again.. in the car.. heart-to-heart chat..
This is not the first time.. but this time will be the most important..
I finally asked that question.. 'Do you afraid that I will be fancy on you?'
the respond is..'I already waited this question for a long period'
LOLZZZ.
We keep chatting and chatting.. until I really don't wanna go home..
whenever I thing back that screen.. make me smile like a fool. :目

That feelings is right.. My heart did go fast..
because of some family stuff and stress.. I cried in front of you.
I asked for a hug from you.. that hug.. really makes me don't wanna let go..

雖然我不懂什麼是喜歡，我只懂我只想被你喜歡。<3

0231 16 Nov 2013 
This post have been stored in my draft for one week.. #throwback

Recently updated.

Girl.. you have too many secret.. 

There really is something that I couldn't tell anyone.. 

I knew.. I knew I couldn't..

Keep asking myself.. criticize myself.. 

I don't know that how to make a decision without according my parents order..

I am already 20 years old now.. 

I have no idea what can I do.. what I should fight for and what I shouldn't get too much..

Respect my family.. my parents.. 

but.. sometimes.. I wish to get what I should get it..

31.10.2013

Happy Halloween <3

Doing all those housework for half day.. felling satisfied :D

Go out with friends evening~

Meet my old primary / first love? haha

Just chatting and chatting.. 

At lease I felt I had a friend? I really didn't have too much of male friend. lolz

After that go for a long drive with two friends <3

We had temper.. argue.. tears.. in the short few hours /.\

Next, we turn out at their house and have beer + wine ~~

Chatting again.. having fun like crazy? until we all hurts each others accidentally /.\

When was the last time I being so crazy?

Maybe.......with my sister? 

Reach home around 0100 and get scolded.. of course..

feeding my hamsters and play along with them..

washing and dry up my parents cloths..

am I consider a good and obedient daughter?

Now is morning 0513 and I am typing my blog post.. lolz

Maybe i will do some drawing before I fall a sleep later <3

Trying to stop love and relationship in my life for a period.. 

I wishing not falling in love with friends.. My heart is like too weak /.\

try my best :3

何必當笨蛋.. 明知道有些人 不能 愛。<3