Am I a jellyfish?

I am jelly but I am not a fish.

I am jelly of everyone!! LOLz

Don't know why.. I am very unhealthy nowadays 

Suffer through stomach pain (without reason) and headache 

I think I am sick.. 0.o

Unhealthy can make people become slimmer? 

I am willing to be unhealthy!! LOL

Nobody will care and take care of me.. Only myself.. Cheer :))

My hair is become worst this week after I change the brand I use.

Sad..

Someone promise, help me to a hair treatment !! Hurray.. XDD

So close yet so far..

How many days we did't talk to each other? Although we stay in the same house.

Haiz..

If she is here... how will you respond?

Still the same?

I.. don't think so... :')

There is no ugly women only Lazy Women.

I knew this theory and I thought I can wake up every morning one or two hours before I go out.

Accidentally my bed don't let me go every morning.. (yes... I know this is nonsense.)

Even though my alam clock wake me up I actually can still sleep back.

I am lazy and I knew it !! XDD

One more month to meet each other..

Ist just close my eyes for few second the time will flews to one month later?

Wish to HUG someone badly.. :((

We are in a shady relationship..

Just remain this relationship and I don't want to lost you. :)

Maybe I can be your soulmate ? XDD

Just remain and at lease if one day we have enough of each other we can easily stop this relationship.

Ist true?

More stress I have more corrupt I am.

Watching PPS Reborn.. Keep Facebook and Facebook.. Playing DDT non-stop..

4 days more to EXAM !!! What the...

Hey.. If you don't care about me why should I care about you.

If you want people to treat you well please do it to others first, can't you understand?

You're asshole. 

I really have enough with you and really no more and No More!!

I admit that I felt guilty because I break out with you but now.. No More. 

You are not become more mature, you are more childish than before.. 

No Smile No Life.

Still remain the same.

I don't know why I am updating my blog everyday,

maybe because I knew that someone will check did I update or not? 

Or.. I purposely update for someone?

It seem likes both of us is knowing each other more well than the first day.

After last night insomnia..

I have a decide for both of us but it can just keep in heart.

Hush..

Afraid about too many things..

I don't want to be a fool and it really looks like I am only one that think too much between us.

Maybe not but this is what I afraid of.

I might jelly about the people (or what you call friends/colleague) keep molest you..

maybe I am too stingy.. 

but when something too mush i will surely become tired of it and I am going to felt tired for this.

Because you are so far away and because I am helpless for it.

Soon.. you are going to move to accommodation.

yup.. happily ever after..

Just remain what we have now and don't think too much..

because we can't decide what will happen next second and maybe not as nice as we imagine.

Finally finish the stock list but don't know how to pass to her.

Haiz.. Maybe I will start the conversation first? 

If not, nobody willing to give up this war.

We doesn't look like family.

Keep like this, you might lost your girl but I doesn't wanted to lost you. ;)

PaKaBoom.. 

I AM GOING TO EXPLODE!

You want to kill me? Go ahead, my life sucks anyway.

Finish my notes for the exam.
Helping them doing stock list.

I don't know why they keep criticize me.. 

belittle/disparage/play down/demean/degrade/devalue?!

"I will see how you die" Ya man.. you too?

I will die and when I die how will you respond?

"You do nothing " Yup.. nothing.. everything i do is nothing..

This is how they educate their child?

Just keep nagging and nagging it is not educate !!

They didn't ever said anything nice before just like you are the most lousy+est.

Although you are in one of our family you are also like something not suppose to be here.

How can they just talk to another child soooooo sweet and me WTH you are.

I'm also your child please.

They said they pamper me until I become like this. 

WT?! I can give up my Macbook and iPhone if you willing to treat me the same!!

Just because you can't control that one you control me?! I never forget this sentence.

Please do not telling your child all the negative and how lousy they are,
this is not a very good educate method!!

You are older than your child and you are more mature end up you are angry with your child for few days and did not talk to your child. 

Did you think before after one day your child might already forget everything but you are more 

boyish/childish than your child. Did this happen in any normal family? I don't know.

Nor matter what I have done is wrong although I did not do anything I am also wrong. What ?!

I just sitting there and says nothing, they can just walk to me and said "Hey!! Don't like this you know?! You can't like this you know?! "

How should I respond?! Of course.. to stop it I can only smile and smile or keep nod my head.

Our family did not have any culture like when we having meal together we will not address each other and ask each other to eat.
Maybe sometimes we will call each other is time to eat stop other works.
Today when we sit down together he just shout at me and want me to address them to eat.
He schold me.. "Don't be no manners"

What the...

Just any small problem they can change the topic to other and make it big and bigger.

It does not means that I don't LOVE you all.

Is the educate method you all use is Wrong...

What the...

Saw something and press a Like click.
Scream and shout out as loud as I can.
Cry until there is no tears.
Cries until felt tired like hell but still cannot sleep.

Congrats. You will get a better one.

Something that I don't want to show up in my status.

No more people I care about them and they will care about me.

I just want to go some where two or three days and that's all..
Why can't you accompany me?
Just meet you up for few hours its too difficult?
You means your weight is more important than me? :(((

The real lonely is just started.

I can't take it Anymore!!!

Everyone will leave me... The problem is just now or later only...

Cry as Crazy as I can.
To celebrate my loneliness!

我的確 祇是害怕一個人 又怎麼樣？......

Meant to be..

I wish to be a kitty, able to be Alone. <3

The fist time you hang my phone is because you angry that..

I am talking about nonsense when I was half drunk..

The second time you hang my phone call is because of her.. your ex.

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We will be still remain Forever right? Just like now.. :)

After the last cries yesterday, I cheers myself up to be a more happy girl.

Never ever cry again.

I wish I can do it. Be STRONG !!

Please dont hurt me.. erm.. if you love me likes me or admire me.

Once there is a scar it will never recover and it will getting worst. :)

Finding language class.. guitar class.. to IMPROVE myself these few days!! :3

I am also finding some education fair for my degree..

Maybe one year in Singapore one year don't know where..

Haiz..

They will only care, when you are Gone. :)

I have enough and is time to leave, right?

Facing the Truth and Be Strong.

Heart is empty.. Where are you?

I know I am very cruel to you.

Yesterday I stay at home and clear all my staff, in my room and my sanctum.
Keeping all the staff.. memories.. inside boxes and drawer.
I know you are not that bad.. but still too wrong for me...

Finally I realize. 
What you need is a person to care about you.
You doesn't care about me.

Glad that you have already got another girl. 

Did you ever view all my previous post about you? 
I really given you chances from the starts until the end I can't give you any chances again..

Times up..

Hey.. I really want to tell you so many things..
I also know that you want and wish I will write something about you in my blog..
Unfortunately both of us just end a long relationship, but we have similar pass.
Unfortunately both of us still can't get out from the pass, but rejoice we are beside each other.
Still.. I will cherish you. <3

Let us improve together make our future more better. Cheer. :)

Moody.

I am angry and can't understand someone.

I told that person before, stop sharing my photos and name in Facebook and that person still doing that.

That person really know how to drive me up the wall, make me want to scream out " F**k Off !! ".

Okay, I choose this consequence by myself. 

I will face it, I should face it.

It is raining now..

Today I want to finish all the stock check list and do 2 hours revision for my Marketing.

LOL.

I want to make my life more substantial, living with aims.

Planning to KL....

I want to go out!! for movie.. for shopping..

But nobody accompany me......sad 

Sobbssss.

Actually, you will get what you want if you put in effort.

If you didn't get what you want that means you didn't put enough effort on it.

Don't blame others, blame yourself please.

I should be happy that someone has accompany me although I am still ALONE here. =3=

Cry because of nobody beside me.. haiz..

Cheer UP !!!

Abandoned. Lonely. Obfuscate. Naive. Earnestly.

Finally someone disappointed with me and giving up me.
Erm... No comment anymore.
I decided to break it clearly and move on with my more better life.
No more down grade myself.

It happens too fast and ending soon?
Someone appears in my life care about me and accompany me..
Almost ten days?
I imagine before study with you in Singapore, but the truth is you are already decided to go others school.
It was sad to know this but.. WHAT CAN I DO? Nothing..
I appreciate the time and money you spend on me.
I think we can still keep in touch like the day before today?
I wish that you will always in my future. I wish...
Thanks. <3 

Today my dearest classmate told me that the date I born is define as the LONELY+EST people.
OMG!! I think I really use to it?

Travel in and out to Singapore by myself is already two months..
September still have degree course..Yup! ALONE AGAIN!

Tomorrow is the last day of DIPLOMA!! 
I still have one more exam~~~ GAMBATEK!!

I will MISS YOU ALL!! OMG!! Sobbs..

Verdict.

Diploma is ending soon !!
A little bit exciting for the holidays !! 
Need to find a works and earn some pocket money. XD
Broken-hearted at having to leave ALL the classmate that already get along around 8 months too. :((

10.04.2013
I when to Universal Studios Singapore !! Finally !!
With my project group members !! Owwwwwwww!!
I want to go for the second time !! XDD

For someone, you have not change anything after I leave you.
I am very disappointed. That's all.
Just let me be the bad person of this relationship and make all of your friends hate me or what.
This will not make you improve. 
Anything you like just go for it and it is no more my business weather you are improved or not.
You chosen it.

This story is coming to the end, and how will the ending be will depends how you face it. :):

Capricorn.

受不了，就别走进摩羯的世界。
摩羯不温柔、脾气不好、 摩羯容易生气、容易吃醋、摩羯容易心痛、容易胡思乱想、摩羯很任性、摩羯生气时不想说话、开心了会傻笑、摩羯受委屈会放在心里、在乎了就想被你知道、 摩羯喜欢在伤心的时候听伤心的歌、喜欢在开心的时候和在乎的人分享。

不要对摩羯座撒谎，其实他心里很清楚，只是不说；
他们习惯了默默承受一切，就算生气了也会为对方找各种理由；
原谅对于摩羯座来说并不难，因为他们只会让自己受伤，而不会去伤害别人。
所以不要欺负摩羯座，对他们而言，最好的报复不是沉默而是离开。
他们的放弃，通常都在一念之间

摩羯座的人害怕孤独,好想依赖人。
却从来不曾真的去依赖,因为已习惯独立孤独。
摩羯座的人总是很任性和小孩子气的固执，即使是错,下次还是固执。
摩羯座的人总凭感觉认定着所有的人和事。
摩羯座的人很胆小又害失败,但表现出来都是强悍的一面。
摩羯座的人看似坚强,内心却会很易受伤。

摩羯都是肯吃委屈的人，更多时候宁愿自己背负不属于自己的黑锅也要维护别人，这不是伟大，只是他们觉得如果委屈自己能让事情平息，他们就愿意这样做。
当然，如果你看到哪只疯狂的摩羯不顾一切爆发了，只能表明无尽的委屈也不能解决事情，这些重担已经严重超过承受力了。

【摩羯座】

1、吃软不吃硬。

2、经常口是心非。

3、很乐观又很悲观。

4、安全感不多，有点感性。有些话即使害怕错过也不说。

5、常常被人骗。有点小心软、小敏感、小洁癖。

6、害怕受伤。总说自己不孤单，其实很寂寞。

7、在陌生人面前很冷淡，熟人面前很闹腾。

8、总表现的很坚强，其实很软弱。

9、总被人误解，却不愿解释。

【摩羯座隐藏的性格特点】

1、敏感多疑。喜欢胡思乱想，爱钻牛角尖。

2、冷静。即使内心起伏再大也十分理智冷静。

3、害怕失去。总表现得不冷不热让人难以靠近。

4、死要面子爱逞强。即使伤心也表现得十分强势。

5、缺乏耐心有点小自私。

6、超级讨厌等人。

摩羯座的人总是脸上微笑着、无所谓着、强势着，但是心里却一直流着泪；

摩羯座的人总是对陌生人冷冷的，但是熟悉了就嘻嘻哈哈；

摩羯座的人总是表现得很坚强，其实很软弱；

摩羯座的人总是说自己不孤单，其实很寂寞；

摩羯座的人总是被人误解，却又不愿解释。

有时候，摩羯觉得自己似乎固执的过分了。

甚至是有些变态了。
心里明明知道都过去了，却仍然要固执的想，固执的说。
也清楚的知道有些事情没有意义，依然要固执的爱，固执的恨。

明明知道是错的，却仍然固执的坚守。
明明感觉很累了，还是要固执的伪装坚强。
摩羯执着的，从来都只是我一个人的执着。